they say...

i have been exalted and condemned,
envied,pitied,ignored
they say that when you express your love first
you give away power
i have given away a lot of it
i feel foolish ,i feel brave
i would like completions to the stories now
stories left aside because they were too alive
i fear and i am scary
they say i drive away people
they say they hear a shrill screech
like a widow crying and then silent-
they say there is nothing like a wrong person to love
i have found a way to do that too
i feel foolish,i feel brave
i dont know myself and
to feel me,from my inside- is my lust
like many men who felt me
they seem ecstatic and some feel fear
i want a taste of me!
how do i feel?
tears are soul's blood he said
mine sheds a lot of it
one thing keeps me going
a faint memory of having lived
the taste of truth that enlivened me
all my scars are beautiful
pain hides anger beneath its cloak
anger that i cant love
anger that i cant  but love
i hope unrequitted love is counted in the game
or is it only about completion?