Thursday, 6 March 2014

web of one another III

the wheel had turned
and the time had come
for them to meet
for they had spoken
of meeting and being
in the web of one another

they met one day,
the day of the moon
she felt his eye on her
she had forgotten his face
and she cared not
as for his heart,
some distant peace emerged
habits die hard
she resisted and he had doubt
ignoring the un ignorable they passed on

she cried often for the pain her heart felt
she was separate from it now
always keeping distance from the one that cried
for she thought , that she was alright
finding cures for the ailing one
she did all ,all that could be done
the search mean while continued
she slowly found freedom
in words and in hue
slowly one form ,she was fascinated by
image of a woman crying her tears in joy
this image then grew on her
for she had to go back to call him near
back to times when they lived in love
when separation was not an image even in thought.

The image had a power , charm of its own
made its home under her skin ,penetrated her bones
crying tears of joy was not what she wished
for it still was impossible, an image her mind furnished
the thrill however ,had made its way
turned her into a new one,born everyday
and the dizzy feeling, subtly made her sway
she still didnt speak of this image to anyone
it was her own little secret,preciously done!


what she didn know that The Great plan it was
when she felt that,him closer she called!
Their creator he was,and she filled the form
 expressed joy of hers,seeded in by him!






web of one another II

turning of the wheel it was
but they had to meet
for they had spoken 
of meeting and being
in the web of one another

she was happier  this time
at least more loud and agile
heart they say never changes
hers was still cast in iron
she learnt much this time
took up many jobs
n filled her time with people too;
not in the society but away from her anger
she tried to convince her heart
that she did care enough to love
tried to say im sorry 
but i dont know what hurts you now
her heart thought of him 
whom she now called 'it'
memory now was only of
her wait and her longing
the sadness,the search she didn understand
for there was a no picture of him 
he who never came.

And he was one who writes
for this time he couldn shed blood
only tears as words
he wrote as it bled
wishing the hurt would go
this time too he fought
with everything around
never content and a cynic he was
causes he found many to fight
calming his raging heart for a while
love he dared not
 always running away ,unsure why
when alone,he often cried
hating and loving
himself and all
travelling to places
trying to trace the call

.......................

web of one another !

they spoke
about meeting and being
with faith
wrapped in the web of one another


she waited 
with faith she waited
when people said its time
she waited on
faith or maybe fear
 she didn stop
for after fighting with so many
she couldn fight herself
for the failed idea
for the lost time
for those wretched words
those she told herself.
the questions stopped
for she then was 'the one who waits'
her anger became her pride
at death,remorse
for she didn kill what was dead.

His heart longing
torn between motherland and vows
he killed so that he could live
every shriek on death
was a cry unuttered from his being
either ways he would be called a coward,
while in his eye he already was
coward who never lived or died
he tried to kill himself with hatred
for he had killed her he knew
but hatred was cruel too
he made himself older soon
as if death followed that dictum
n sometimes wondered if the corpse was around
or if her anger had brought her back to life
either ways he would lose her
and in his eye he already had.







she said...

i spoke to a woman today

engulfed in fires of creative urge
i burnt and showed her my light
smiling, laughing she too beamed so bright,
tone of  her voice,matching mine
friend,confidant 
 my own other with coloured light
age mattered no more to us
she was young and i old
sharing stories of life untold
then later she calmly told
of the feelings ,of goddess of wisdom old
saraswati I am ,so peaceful inside
shakti's force with  compassionate stride 
creation is pleasure my own she said
man i need is through presence felt
 "how come you shine so bright and red
you matched me, even yesterday as i bled"
as i talk i know now my core
to shine ,i need to burn no more
that i reflect calmly now
white to white and red to red.

something lives on

something lives on


the words get me going
read,written and sung
'sing for love' my dream tells me 
'something lives on'
among the pieces and pieces yet to be broken
the spirit of continuity remains
that will fill you when hungry
and help you cry to unburden
the same wretched continuity ,
will be a reminder of moments lived
and moments that died,
it will move your will,and let you shine
and help you belong to yourself
amongst the changing seasons of the world.
the continuity will be a homage
to your attempts in the world
it will be your softness oneday
that continuity .

stillness

bitten by the magic bug,
I dreamt carelessly
went all the way in
all the way to the other end
flowed with the words
and fooled by my images in my mind
i smiled and laughed and giggled
I believed
this illusion was the most fatal
for faith generated to create it
was gathered after sifting through the memories
distilling the lessons learnt
that which he loved the most in me
he killed it ,and ruthlessly at that
never the one to believe in promises
I snuggled in the comfort of this words
mortally wounded I can say I am
for a Hole in my heart gapes into oblivion
I dont have anyone to share my sorrow with
for they are still celebrating the joy he brought to my face
I dont want to kill that
the reminiscence of the scent fast disappearing
I continue to brave the world
working as if nothing every happened
while my heart is still with disbelief


Mirage

what if i weren't as you see me?
what if i weren who you think ?
not broken! not in need !
not confident as you believe!

what if I was conservative?
and you learnt that i have fears
what if I like grounding
and freedom both near?

what if I told you 
of all lost and gained
and what if i didn know 
which of them you were-would you blame?

what if on this journey 
I were a shadow with colour,
 what if I was the image of just enough courage
your heart and soul could gather?

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