stillness

bitten by the magic bug,
I dreamt carelessly
went all the way in
all the way to the other end
flowed with the words
and fooled by my images in my mind
i smiled and laughed and giggled
I believed
this illusion was the most fatal
for faith generated to create it
was gathered after sifting through the memories
distilling the lessons learnt
that which he loved the most in me
he killed it ,and ruthlessly at that
never the one to believe in promises
I snuggled in the comfort of this words
mortally wounded I can say I am
for a Hole in my heart gapes into oblivion
I dont have anyone to share my sorrow with
for they are still celebrating the joy he brought to my face
I dont want to kill that
the reminiscence of the scent fast disappearing
I continue to brave the world
working as if nothing every happened
while my heart is still with disbelief