deafening silence!

why are you so scared 

telling me that you love will not make me hurt you

why cant you just say it

coz now i cant even hate you for the pain you cause

everytime i cry out loud-i think it will end

but the pain remains and i ask,"now what"

then its numbness till the next time i cry

i am harmless i would like to say

but i cause pain i know

the forts i built to protect myself

doesn let you enter

but without you entering it

how will i know its safe to destroy it?!

my passions are gone

and my will to be of help is diminishing

thank god breathing is involuntary

or id have died long ago

i dont know whom to be angry with

but anger wells up again and again

knowing not what to do

i keep quiet 

this quiet has destroyed my soul

i say il speak when i know

i fear il become mute one day

all that which gave me peace are just words now

a make believe that  mocks me

and you still are silent

my challenge is that you tell me that you dont feel for me

anything,tell me anything 

please dont be quiet

mine is deafening and yours adds on 

i need to break this 

either with tears of sorrow or joy

please make me live again

tell me something